It's been a month now.. One whole month of just walking back and forth, going nowhere.. But I started meditating, which makes me feel like God still has hopes for me. None of it makes sense to me anymore. But I never lose hope..
I had a great evening last night. I got some gemstones as a gift from a friend who does solar yoga. They made me feel SO good! Really! There is something about it..
It wasn't easy at all. Not studying. Acting as if everything was normal, when it's not.. Or at least it wasn't.. A lot of guys just ran ito me. I pretended that I know them, and in fact, I didn't. I don't know what to think or say...
I feel peaceful now that I'm with myself.
A film reminded me of Ted. Still haven't read his book. If he was here, he would know what to tell me. I can feel him now. I feel you... How I wish you could talk to me and advise me. I needed someone. I was alone for too long. And then again, we're all alone. I need to learn that.
I stopped going to lectures, Ted. I stopped studying. I don't hang out with people from my faculty. Because theý're way too different from me...
Wish you were here..
Bisous, as you first taught me...
Bisous, as you first taught me...
K
